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Published on January 10, 2005 By Ravenblack In Life Journals
I'm on day 4. I have not yet given it up completely and am still taking half of what I usually take in the morning. (I only take coffee in the morning.)

It's funny how one never realises how much one is dependent on the stuff until one is trying to give it up. I think I'm beginning to understand what addiction is.

For the past four mornings, I have taken half the usual amount of coffee I use to make myself that heavenly brew and it's only self discipline that has kept me from just giving up and taking the usual load. The first thought is: I can't make it. The second one is of wondering how I will ever give up the coffee habit. The third: Why am I doing this to myself?!

I remind myself that my goal is to give up dependency on coffee. I do realise that it is difficult when I have travel and if it so happens I don't get coffee in the morning, I can get cranky and nasty, and then a terrible headache.

Friday went by alright, only some sleepiness. Saturday morning (8/1), I made the half load and drank every drop of it. I was even tempted to lick the insides of the cup. (But I didn't do that in the end...the thought had occurred and it was amusing.). Saturday evening, I had a dull headache. Sunday morning (9/1), upon waking up, the pain was almost unbearable. (It could also be that I have slept too much, as it had been raining all Saturday to Sunday morning, and was cool and wonderful for sleeping.) I nearly gave up right there.

Nonetheless, I took a half-load again. The headache went away. There was no headache that evening. There was no headache this morning (10/1), which was good. But again, I was very tempted to take the usual load of caffine as I was feeling sleepy. But I resisted the temptation and just hung on to my resolve.

I may be ready for quarter the usual morning caffine load by the end of this week. But I can tell you: currently, that thought doesn't feel particularly pleasant to me.

Comments
on Jan 10, 2005
You can do it, your stronger then the coffee monster
on Jan 10, 2005
I gave up caffeine a few years ago, after an allergy test showed me that it was the reason I wasn't able to sleep at night and was constantly tired. It's a pain for the first few days - the headaches, the grouchiness - and then it leaves your system and you're fine.
The energy that I got after it though was worth it - stick to it!
on Jan 10, 2005
I didn't want a coffee...... until now.
Good luck and take care.
on Jan 10, 2005
stick with it kiddo.......maybe a herbel tea instead in mornings> just to give your hands something to do?
on Jan 10, 2005
Thanks everyone.